what the hell, people?

the sunday skinny:

02/04/07	current	goal	lost this week	lost so far	left to lose
weight:	206.2 lb	160.0 lb	1.2 lb	7.6 lb	46.2 lb
body fat:	46% (?)	25%	0%	1%	45%

ok, so you tell me. i have eaten utter crap all week long and have been to the gym exactly zero times. so why? why am i down 1.2 pounds this week??? this just makes no sense to me. i guess the lesson is, you can have a shitty week every once in a while and not pay too bad of a price for it. i know i can't continue to eat this way, however, or that get-out-of-jail-free card will definitely expire, and i will die of a stroke or a heart attack after busting through all the seams in my jeans. bleh. i am almost annoyed that i have lost anything this week since i did NOTHING to deserve it. and yes, i know that's irational and perverse. anyway--i am getting back on track today, so you know, cross your fingers for me that things go well.

sunday morning, not so skinny

the sunday skinny:

02/04/07	current	goal	lost this week	lost so far	left to lose
weight:	207.4 lb	160.0 lb	-1.2 lb	6.4 lb	47.4 lb
body fat:	???	25 %	???	???	???

in a word--ugh. then again, i don't know what i was expecting since i have been to the gym what? once this week? i know that exercise is key for me to lose weight, and yet, still i hope i will keep losing when i do virtually nothing to make it happen. i mean, i have still been eating healthy, but you know what i mean--i need more activity in my daily life, so i need to work harder to get it there. even when it's 20 degrees out at 5:30am. and even when i feel kind of ill--unless i am really sick, i should be able to do something. i guess i just need to become more of my own drill sergeant.

superbowl sunday skinny

the sunday skinny:

02/04/07	current	goal	lost this week	lost so far	left to lose
weight:	206.2 lb	160.0 lb	1.4 lb	7.6 lb	46.2 lb
body fat:	???	25 %	???	???	???

so the miracle here is that i am down a little bit even though i haven't been to the gym. all i keep thinking is that i could have made that number a lot bigger if i HAD gone. working out is key. and yet, i have such a hard time with it. this go 'round it isn't even that i don't want to work out--it's just been hard having a super-busy work week and trying to get the home stuff done and get to bed early enough to make it happen in the morning. i don't mean to sound like i am making excuses--i'm not. i am just trying to figure out what i need to change to make this happen for myself. but anyway--let's hear it for not having to post another negative weight loss for this week--whoo hoo!

oh, and by the way, my scale at home says i have dropped to 46% body fat from the original 47. i have to say--i still don't trust it to be right, but i am going to keep watching it just in case. i would talk to them at the gym about helping me figure out my BF%, but the front desk is peopled by idiots. it's sad.

sunday skinny time again

the sunday skinny:

01/28/07	current	goal	lost this week	lost so far	left to lose
weight:	207.6 lb	160.0 lb	-.8 lb	6.2 lb	47.6 lb
body fat:	???	25 %	???	???	???

food log:

• breakfast: 1/2 cup oatmeal with 1/4 cup blueberries and a few chopped walnuts with cinnamon and brown sugar, tea
• lunch: a whole wheat wrap with tuna salad
• dinner: grilled chicken with a rosemary and lavender-based spice rub, sauteed spinach with garlic, a small sweet potato with a tiny bit of butter, and cinnamon and brown sugar
• snacks/other: no morning snack, a little bit of cilantro jalapeno hummus (made by THK from 28 cooks) with cucumber and red pepper
• desserts/sweets: 1 little piece of belgian dark chocolate

activities: um, let's see... knitting... cooking...

so. i am up .8 pounds this week, which i attribute to the following: 1) too much eating out, 2) not enough time in the gym, 3) pms and The Bloat. the gym, is of course, the biggest factor here as it always is for me. this week has to go better, so i will just be in the red again next week, which would suck. so. not all weeks can be golden, and there's no point in beating my self up about it--some weeks are just going to be harder than others. this one was particularly stressful, which with that whole house-buying thing WHILE pms-ing. it's just not a recipe for success. the good news is that i really kept making an effort to be conscious of what and how much i was eating, and that's definitely something. today is the start of a whole new week, so yay for that. :)

sunday: last day of phase one

the sunday skinny:

01/21/07	current	goal	lost this week	lost so far	left to lose
weight:	206.8 lb	160.0 lb	3.2 lb	7.0 lb	46.8 lb
body fat:	???	25 %	???	???	???

whoo hoo! 3.2 more pounds! not too bad for the first two weeks--i know this is going to drop off dramatically as we move into phase two of south beach, but i am still pleased with the progress so far. actually i am a little surprised, given how slack i have been about working out the past few days. i definitely could have done better. i am still working on making it just a part of my daily routine.

and for today:

food log:

• breakfast: 1 egg with 1 slice of canadian bacon and 2 slices of turkey bacon, LS V-8, tea (many cups)
• lunch: garden salad with smoked tomato dressing and a grilled shrimp skewer
• dinner: 15-bean soup with ham--YUMMY and very comforting on a cold rainy sunday!
• snacks/other: cashews in the morning, and a wedge of light LC cheese int he afternoon
• desserts/sweets: none

activities: heh--i am not sure knitting counts for this type of activity. :)

today was more cooking than knitting for me, but i managed to fit in some of each. i was trying to get a bit ahead on come cooking for the week, which is almost a necessity when you are trying to be healthy--otherwise you end up eating out more, which is very hard when you are trying to be good. now, aoo i need to to pump my activity level up more. evn on sundays--i should start going for a walk in the morning or something. oh well--one step at a time. tomorrow we start phase two--oatmeal for breakfast!

sunday knitting and cooking day

the sunday skinny:

01/14/07	current	goal	lost this week	lost so far	left to lose
weight:	210.0 lb	160.0 lb	3.8 lb	3.8 lb	50.0 lb
body fat:	???	25 %	???	???	???

i feel pretty good about that 3.8 pounds up there. makes me feel pumped up to continue! i really need to find a way to accurately measure body fat, however. i keep thinking i will ask at the gym, but the woman at the desk in the mornings is an IDIOT. it's hard to talk to her at all, much less ask her about body fat percentages.

and for today:

food log:

• breakfast: 2 eggs with LF cheddar cheese, a little parmesan, and a pinch of mutmeg, white pepper, and red pepper--REALLY good!
• lunch: turkey chili
• dinner: grilled marinated sirloin, roasted cauliflower, and sauteed greens with lemon and soy
• snacks/other: a wedge of light LC cheese in the morning, and 15 almonds int he afternoon
• desserts/sweets: none

activities: nada. this is on purpose--my knee is giving me fits. although i did clean the crap out of the bathroom, which always works up a sweat.

THK and our friend amy came over today for knitting, and we STILL stuck to the diet--very proud. THK is doing it, too, so she was easy. but it was hard not to open a bottle of wine or something in celebration of amy being over and the general fabulousness of the day. we did drink a lot of tea, but that was the biggest indulgence of the day.

a fresh start

tomorrow is my new start. today is my preparation day. i feel like i have been gearing up for like 2 years, but man is it ever time to get my ass in gear, literally. i am not sure what the turning point moment is in my head, but i seem to have reached it. i am restless. i am anxious to feel better and to look better. i am tired of eating crap. so. fresh start. the nice thing is that i have so much support, not only from great friends, but also from the hippie, who will join me in this effort even though he is alredy in stupendous shape. (he will argue that this is not so, but those of you who know him can be my witnesses on that!)

tomorrow we will be revisiting the south beach diet, which i know works well for me, especially when combined with steady working out. i will also drag my ass up at early o'clock to go to the gym. it's suck-it-up time, people. and we all know that once i get used to it, it won't suck so bad. week 1 i will feel all self-righteous and proud. week 2 i will start to feel tired, but still be determined. then, y'all should be prepared for some serious complaining somewhere around week 3. i expect support. i mean it. i will be logging everything here, so this site may be about to become BORING, but i expect a select few of you to keep reading, just to help me. you know who you are.

today shall be the start of my new sunday tradition--the weigh-in. i haven't put much stock in this in the past, but i need constant motivations, so i am hoping this will help. this morning i got up, stripped, weighed, and took all my measurements. it's a starting point. i am also setting a weight goal for myself, which is also something i have never really done--usually for me, it's been about trying to FEEL better, period. but i am taking a little bit of a different approach. there's no time limit to this goal, and this is NOT a new year's resolution--i just want to get there, no matter how long it takes. so--i will robably only report measurements once a month, but the weight and body fat percentage i will report every week. disclaimer: i am not at all sure that my scale is good at BF% calculation, but this is aso going to be a test for it. if the BF% number doesn't start going down, i will get the folks at the gm to check me out.

anyway. enough babble. here's the skinny (or the fat, as it were):

01/07/07	current	goal	to lose
weight:	213.8 lb	160 lb	53.8 lb
body fat:	47%	25%	22%

• neck: 15 5/8
• bust1: 44 3/4
• bust2: 40
• arm: 16 1/2
• waist: 38
• hip: 47 1/2
• thigh: 27 1/2
• calf: 17