daily reckoning the fourth

food log:

• breakfast: 6 oz. stoneyfield organic blueberry yogurt and a cup of EB tea with 1 tsp. white sugar (i need to get some raw sugar for work!) and ~1.5 oz. 1% milk
• lunch: turkey wrap with lettuce, tomato, sprouts, avacado, and light ranch dressing in a spinach tortilla with some strawberries and 3 teeny tiny little muffins (2 bran and one jalapeno corn)
• dinner: BAD DINNER--a 1/3lb cheeseburger with bacon, cheddar, grilled onions, and BBQ sauce, and a handful of terrible but fabulous crinkle fries. this is pretty awful, but could have been a lot worse, as what i REALLY wanted with the BIG burger and a chocolate milkshake. baby steps i guess. i even resisted the sweet tea in favor of just water--that's GOTTA count for something!
• snacks/other: met emily at starbucks for knitting--had a grande awake tea with a little whole milk and 3 packets of raw sugar and half an oatmeal raisin cookie. and let me tell you, people--throwing that second half away was an act of sheer will--i almost ate it. i don't know what it is about those damned cookies, but i swear i am addicted to them.
• desserts/sweets: the aforementioned cookie and 1 dark chocolate hershey's kiss

activities: walked to dinner to eat that horrible burger. was planning to walk to knitting, but it was pouring rain, so i drove instead.

let's face it, self-denial is just not my strong suit when i am bleeding like a stuck pig. it's ironic that i feel somehow entitled to treat myself with bad food that will only make me feel and look worse in the long run. how does that make sense?